As a child, I was rather shy and solitary and lived in my imagination. I fantasized about the world in rain puddles and beyond the reflection in my bedroom mirror. As I grew up and moved into the real world, my artwork developed from my need to explore my feelings in both worlds.
As a young adult, my vision for my painting was to restore the third dimension to the painting space, and, to accomplish this I have focused on learning and then using the old master methods of indirect painting. My learning in the area is all self-taught through reading, observation and experimentation. Much of 20th century painting had been devoted to emphasizing the two-dimensional space of the picture plane and when I first began to paint, abstraction was still in vogue. Although there were practicing representational painters, for example Edward Hopper and Fairfield Porter among many others, the space in their paintings is still shallow. I have long studied the work of Rembrandt and Italian Renaissance painters among others toward my goal. At the same time, I have also been a devoted student of Cezanne, Bonnard and Matisse. What I have realized is that my vision is to create a painting that exists as a melding of a three dimensional space and a two-dimensional construct (real and imagined worlds) using a variety of means such as line, overlapping planes, value, color relationships, atmospheric perspective, patterning, shape-state, the properties of oil paint (transparent vs. opaque, texture) to name just a few. My vision can never be completely realized, but it is an ideal to work toward.
I have described the technical aspect of my quest, but not my motive. Life is wonderful and joyous and tragic and an epic battle for survival. We live our daily lives from one moment to the next; experience a myriad of pleasures and struggles, ups and downs, usually without much reflection or even noticing how we are feeling. But when we look at a piece of art, an art of truth, we see our life reflected back in a way that hits our core and floods us with the feeling of living, integrated and whole. I create this world of mine not only as a place for me to be fully awake and alive, but for others to inhabit as well. I want my paintings to be a reminder of all that is suffered and sacrificed and at the same time to be a place of hope and peace and light.